HI~ i’m alive, and still kicking.

Many things have happened so far. Even chinese Os are over, I’ve gotten back my report book, the 3R project (with Renee, Tess, Trina and Yinyee) is done and over with, so is the exhibition at Suntec and assembly periods in school, even my dear Jasmine has returned from holidaying in Japan, my dad most probably has gout now. haha ah well~

It’s not the school holidays for me yet. THANK GOODNESS, ONE LAST WEEK. I absolutely cannot take it anymoreee. Everyday is ultimate sian-ness and boredom. Math ain’t fun anymore, it’s become torturous and unbearable, and I’m getting horribly pissed with it. UH HUH, I SURE AM. 

Damn. Sometimes, I don’t know what to believe anymore. I don’t think deep into things, usually only seeing things on the surface. That’s how I don’t see what some people see. I guess that’s kind of equivalent to being naive? hmmm.. I believe that relationships with people are very very important. They can either build you or just crush you flat. Of course it’s always better to make friends than enemies, so I don’t really know what to do or think now :/  I could control myself, don’t explode and try my very best to subdue whatever anger or frustration I have inside, or I could gradually start avoiding. (preferably not the latter luh)

AHHHHH

Oh yeah, I’m not able to express myself well either. It’s okay in words..but in speech? bleah! Maybe my brain doesn’t think fast enough to build the words in my mouth before it all just spills out in an incoherent babble of lousy word choices. That sucks, really.

Moving on to something else, I wonder if I’ll have the determination to carry on something like what I’m doing now during the holidays instead of leaving my brain to rot in front of the computer. haha non-stop jap dramas yo. heh that also depends on whether I’m able to find new (and entertaining) shows to watch~  hoho not to mention shopping of some sort, buying stickers, reading the books I want to, practice piano, find new earworms, going out with my sister and cousins ETC ETC. But I guess I’ve gotta wait till err next thursday or so (i.e. after guides camp training) to really do what I want to. yeahhh

Time really flies. 2007 is almost done with. I could say that it’s been pretty great for me.  haha a lot of happenings. Although shit happens pretty often as well. It’s part and parcel of life I guess. 15 isn’t too bad an age~   hee I don’t mind staying this age. Gee, I’m not even 15 yet. HAHA

At this age, one starts to realise the importance of family, friends, being grateful, treasuring every minute and second of fun. But then again, there’s still a longgggggg way to go! (: Life may be a pretty huge rollarcoaster, but at the end of it, you’re dead certain that it’s been a great hell-of-a ride.

I’m sorry if this post is boring but it’s of a relative importance to me. So there.

M.I.A. – Avenged Sevenfold!

Staring at the carnage,
praying that the sun will never rise.
Living another day in disguise.
These feelings cant be right,
lend me your courage to stand up and fight, on tonight.

Stand up and fight.

Now fighting rages on and on,
to challenge me you must be strong.
I’ll walk your land but don’t be long,
two million soldiers cant be wrong.

Its no fun but i’ve been here before.
I’m far from home and im fighting your war.
(Not the way i pictured this, i wanted better things)

Some are scared others killing for fun,
i shot a mother right in front of her son.
(Change this from my consciousness and please erase my dreams)

Fight for honor, fight for your life.
Pray to god that our side is right.
You know we won but still we lose,
until i make it home to you.

I see your mother still in tears,
we grew up so fast where did those years go.
Memories wont let you cry unless i don’t return tonight.

So many soldiers on the other side,
I take their live so they can’t take mine.
(Scared to make it out alive now murders all i know.)

Nobody tells me all the reasons we’re here,
i am a weapon so there’s nothing to fear.
(Another day another life but nothing real to show for.)

Fight for honor, fight for your life.
Pray to god that our side is right.
You know we won but still we lose,
until i make it home to you.

I see your mother still in tears,
grew up so fast where did those years go.
Memories wont let you cry unless i don’t return tonight.

Staring at the carnage,
praying that the sun will never rise.
Living another day in disguise.
These feelings cant be right,
lend me your courage to stand up and fight.

Watching the death toll rise wondering how im alive.
Strangers blood on my hands, showed all i can.
There were no sunny nights watching your brothers all die
To destroy all their plans with no thought of me.
(No thought of me)
No thought of me.

We’ll walk the city lonely,
memories that are not passing by.
A murderer walks your streets tonight.
Forgive me for my crimes.
Don’t forget that i was so young, but so scared.
In the name of God and Country.

I like quizzes (:  they tell me more about myself~ yay.

You Would Be a Pet Dog

You’re friendly, loyal, and an all around good sport. People love to be near you. You are very open with your feelings, and you’re quite vocal in expressing them. You are sincere and kind. You love many people – without any sort of agenda.Why you would make a great pet: You’re content to chill out with your friendsWhy you would make a bad pet: You always find yourself getting into trouble What you would love about being a dog: Running around and playing What you would hate about being a dog: Being left home alone while everyone else is out having fun

You Are a Kinetic Learner

You learn best by doing, and you have a talent for complicated, physical tasks. You excel at athletics, drama, and fixing things. You would be an excellent Olympic athlete – or a Broadway star!

You Should Honeymoon in the USA!

You and your sweetie want a fun filled honeymoon Without the hassle of food poisoning or learning a new language The USA is perfect for you (even if you already live here) You can kick it at a spa, go to an amusement park, or explore a new city Suggested destinations: Disneyworld, Vegas, NYC, Napa Valley, Palm Springs

HELLO WORLD~

Let me see.. it’s been almost two-days-to-three-months since the last post (:

DOES ANYONE COME HERE? O:

Anyhoo, term 3 is coming to a closure in about a week’s time. I’m sure my ppr wouldn’t be satisfactory but hopefully more pleasant than last term’s! /:   YESSS. Ethel is screweddddddd~

Things have changed since 24th May. New and old friendships, maturity, level of hardworking-ness, new found earworms…….and the list goes on. I’d say, the term was generally okay although it’s been tiring.

hmmm more events and surprises to awaits! EOYs drawing near, YEE project, more presentations and reports, more learning, more window shopping, more studying, more playing! mmm

I’m thankful i’m able to pull through with the help of friends and family (:  I’m sorry if i’ve been an irritant or a total pig or a complete shitass. All Ethel wants to say to everyone she knows is:

 THANK YOUUUUU~

OKAY. That sounded like some before-i-die speech. but no, it’s NOT. i am greatful. mhmm.
Study hard and all the best for EOYs! and i shall pray for everyone. yay~
&I’MGOINGBACKIN

HIBERNATION!

:’)

It’s funny how i can actually dread going to school every morning, then now, it’s finally the holidays but i miss school. oh well. time passes real fast, and half a year’s gone ):

The last day of school was…pretty weird? ppr in the morning. it was DISASTROUS ):< damn i hate myself. after that there was chem test that i TOTALLY SCREWED. oh well, shit happens. then it was studying at the library during recess and i learnt new stuff! O: which really aided me during the math test later on. it was wonderful i’d say! oh yes, Shanna is really good with the wires. thank you for making a pair of spectacles for my turtle! xD  i’ll just pray that i can get an A1 for math now (:  i must believe so! then there was the opening of chips and stuff. i had practically gone mad, singing Grace Kelly and such. hahaha i think Mika’s great yo. his songs are like highhh~ and i like the high voice (X  cleared our classrooms then rushed to the drama studio for some presentation on Energy which i barely understood. then was gateway for a while. quickly took down as much as i could then left. hengggggg i wasn’t late for class. after class, i bought the Abercrombie bag i wanted! YAY~  but i missed my bus -.- reached home only at 8+

IKEA laterrrr then i have an interview to do cip. haha

(In no order of preference)
MY EARWORMS RIGHT NOW:
<3 Grace Kelly – Mika
<3 Love Today – Mika
<3 Lollipop – Mika
<3 Punk Rock Princess – Something Corporate
<3 Watch The Sky – Something Corporate
<3 Miss Delaney – Jack’s Mannequin
<3 Crazy Mary – FM Static
<3 5 Minutes To Midnight – Boys Like Girls
<3 Hero/ Heroine – Boys Like Girls
<3 Howl’s Moving Castle Theme – Joe Hisaishi

~

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

I listen to 88.3fm every  morning. and they have this thing about horoscopes and a prediction as to how your day’s gonna run. apparently, saggitarius wasn’t exactly very lucky. and to tell the truth, today was one of the worst ever this term. got back a dozen test papers and they all SUCKED. big time. I was then moody for the rest of the day. haha OOPS. I know this sounds pretty childish, not to mention stupid, but I do believe in predictions and the likes. (superstitious much?) but then again, there’s no harm in believing in it.

Haven’t blogged for a while now. Can’t really be bothered either~  got ulcers in my mouth which is only painful at night -.-”
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It’s scary how people change. and yeah, it sucks. noticing others makes me wonder about myself. am i changing too? it’s inevitable and unstoppable, just like how my weight  just continues to increase with me eating lesser. change can do harm or good. it really depends on how one wants to change. sometimes it seems as if it’s usually for the worst. as the chinese saying goes “xue hao san nian, xue huai san tian”.

that brings me to my second point. does religion do you harm or good? it really varies. but at times, it seems as if the continuous praise and worship is like a cult. i know people have different beliefs but sometimes the things they preach about is morally incorrect, and may sound offensive to others of a different religion. this of course, cannot be seen by yourself, but only by a third party. AND, it’s pretty obvious too if you actually think about it.

very soon, you drift away, becoming hi-bye friends. until the person really hits rock bottom and realises the faults and mistakes. making a comeback isn’t easy but giving up definitely isn’t an option.

i suddenly thought about emo-ness, and immediately related it to the movie Gangster15 which was a local production but never advertised. i suppose it was due to vulgarities, gruesome scenes and such. there was a scene where a guy was slashing his arm and repeatedly cutting on the same wound. and i felt disgusted. emo much? i don’t understand how people can put themselves through such torture and pain. it’s crazy how the mind thinks.

 :|

Mcfly, Ballad of Paul K

He’s drinking cold Corona Feels like is getting older Now and noticing how he’s finding Grey hairs left in the shower Tattoos fade by the hour And he can’t understand these feelings Why life is getting him down He used to smile now he frowns And cries inside Its been this way for a while And he can’t seem to put things right When life has been unkind And you’re losing your mind Look in the mirror afraid of what you’ll find It feels like time’s not on your side He doesn’t like to mention Applying for his pension So his children don’t know he’s heading Into a mid-life crisis He cant afford the prices for The new kitchen floor he’s buying He’s been a drunk all his life Two kids, a dog and a wife He doesn’t know And in the daytime he just sits and watches television shows When life has been unkind And you’re losing your mind Look in the mirror afraid of what you’ll find It feels like time’s not on your side Dont know why but somehow The ones you love you hate now, You feel down and blue Look at what you’ve thrown away They stood beside you all the way Now its too late, its too late for you When life has been unkind And you’re losing your mind Look in the mirror afraid of what you’ll find It feels like time’s not on your side

Went to the zoo today. Haven’t been there for really realy long! I quite like it there (:  with new attraction sites and everything, oh the otters, the seal, the tigers, the kangaroos! haha YAY~

Today was sports day. superrrr siannnnnn. Lessons in the morning were okay i guess. At least i wasn’t nodding away so badly. oops!  hmmm plus, considering the fact that I slept at 2am and woke up at 8.30, it was a remarkable feat.

Anyhoo, it rained like mad   and we were at Claire’s house after lessons. Had pizza and snacks for lunch and watched Death Note. Well, I only watched a bit. I was busy with VBC most of the time. We’ve improved! and i’m glad (: although we ain’t the best. But I personally feel that it was quite a good experience. Handling money, purchasing raw materials and the likes. No doubt we’re losing cos we only got the hang of it on Thursday but still, I think we’ve done swell! (:

Oh well, lots of homework this weekend! /:

Crazy Mary- FM static
Crazy Mary’s a slow girl who looks up to no one
Would do anything for a cold one
Wishes she could find her way home

Got the look on her face
And her stare’s like a ray gun
As we walked by everything and
I wished there’s something I could do for her

May be If I
Took a little time to talk
Then she’d heal a little if she wants to
She can run but let’s teach her
How to walk away now
I’ll shake a little if she wants to
Laugh a little if she needs to
There’s a key to the door that she’s hiding behind

She watches the world pass her by like a freight train
And they all call her the same names
Laughing as they point and stare at her

So she cries out to god up in heaven
Been praying since she was eleven
For him to send someone to meet her there

May be If I
Took a little time to talk
Then she’d heal a little if she wants to
She can run but let’s teach her
How to walk away now
I’ll shake a little if she wants to she’ll
Laugh a little if she needs to
There’s a key to the door that she’s hiding behind

And no one knows the thoughts and the dreams and ideas
That she’s got and contains inside
She’s so broken apart
And her hearts is still looking for somewhere to feel alright

And no one knows the thoughts and the dreams and ideas
That she’s got and contains inside
She’s so broken apart
And her hearts is still looking for somewhere to feel alright

May be If I
Took a little time to talk
Then she’d heal a little if she wants to
She can run but let’s teach her
How to walk away now
I’ll shake a little if she wants to she’ll
Laugh a little if she needs to
There’s a key to the door that she’s hiding behind

Some say Love, it is a razor; That leaves your soul to bleed.

Does religion do you harm instead of good? ):

Our school’s strings got gold-with-honours, so did my sister’s. Eat your words rgs.

Gateway can only be done from the 30th of April onwards. If it drags even more, i’m afraid that the trial may end up being the actual one. hmmm got plenty of work to do. But really, all i wanna do now is to relax and do whatever i want /: it’s been a long time since there was any fun. oh well

I find it enjoyable complaining to Gets and telling her about..well..stuff. haha

We could be more than just amazing.

Can’t catch tomorrow!

I’ve been looking forward to school lately. There’s this bond that hasn’t been seen before. We’re closer, we’re happier, we’re the bomb, and we’re three wisdom 07!

Just came back from chemistry tuition. The way home was terrifyingly disgusting, 100% perverted and chee ko pek-ish. like hello? i KNOW it’s Geylang, but at 9+pm on a weekday, it’s swarming and conjested with men. EEW EEW EEW      I am thankful that i do NOT have to drive past that utterly obscene place again. gosh!

On a lighter note, I have koped pictures from ZhiYing’s blog! (X haha (oops!)

The oh-so-pretty AMK library at night!

Remember to take off your shoes in the Activities Room!

“You’re suppose to pretend to study”

I was studying okay! HAHAHA

to blackrosee: you’re elissa, as in sec two guide, elissa? haha yep, selling cars! why? O.o